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06 May 2007 @ 10:36 am
it's very warm in the philippines right now.

14 May 2006 @ 04:22 pm
this is such a sad journal. in all the ways it could be. he he he.

wow, i was able to bring it back. i though accounts get deleted after thirty days?
26 June 2005 @ 11:30 pm
hm. i just watched varekai, waking life, my left foot, and amadeus. all in a row.

im starry eyed with visions of creating great artsy world-class stuff.

ehe. oh well.
26 June 2005 @ 11:05 pm
Finally! We have a PC already! ^_^ and fortunately, a friend taught me some nifty tricks to prevent my system from crashing again. Muahahaha. I have Norman to thank for for the PC. ^_^

I’m officially an Out-Of-School-Youth. Mom and Dad decided that it might be best for all of us if I stay home and rest. The suggestion was more than welcome.  I figured perhaps two straight years of school did a lot of bad things to my system (though I’m not saying school didn’t do me any good) so maybe this break will do a bit of good for me. Besides, it’ll give me some time to catch up! (Papa Tomato… catch up!) with books and it’ll also give me time to re-immerse myself in the bowels of knowledge of child development and psychology.

I’m currently playing around with graphics programs. So far, all I’ve managed to do is to transform my Mom’s face into a gargoyle’s. Ech. Mom promptly suggested that I go to art and graphics school so I won’t have to waste time figuring out how the programs work. My wounded, cyber-age pride notwithstanding, I asked her instead to just buy me books.

It’s so peaceful here at home now. We don’t argue as often and when we do, it’s usually man-to-man (woman-to-woman?). It’s easier for me to compromise so that I get what I want most of the time. I cannot begin to tell you how big a relief that is for me.

I went to Greenhills yesterday. Another first for me! (Really!) I bought pc chips, some dvd’s, a pair of shoes, and earrings for mom (which cost me an arm, hell, I never knew earrings could be so dear). While I got tired walking around, I had fun haggling with the shopkeepers (shopkeepers… do people still use that word?) and looking at the glitzy stuff in the tiangge. I suddenly missed my bracelets and my necklaces and my earrings.  Oh well, I could always wait for a good abubot to come my way.

it's raining heavily outside...
Current Mood: gratefulgrateful
Current Music: bob dylan - rolling stone
03 May 2005 @ 12:22 pm
i was most unceremoniously dragged to the car by my mother when she saw me last saturday. for those who don't know, i moved out of the house about a month ago due to reasons i cannot disclose. -__- anyway, she had me pack my things and ride in the car.

i had everything out in the open with her during that ride from my boardng house at sampaloc to UP. i told her about my AWOL, my screwed up practicum, my production rackets, and the lifestyle i led during the past year. shameless. and curiously, i said it unapologetically, as if i were daring her. so in the end, i had her crying. and then, i ran away again. BUT! i came home the next day cus it was her birthday. although i was expecting her to be cold to me, i didn't expect her to be outright belligerent with me. oh well. i guess i dont make a good prodigal daughter. ech. anyway, she could rant all she wants now. my turn will come later. eheh. "choose your battles."

so im at UP right now, trying to file for readmission. the odds are far from low. but im not particularly worried; i really dont feel like going to school anymore, not if i have to go through the same course again. hmn. bahala na. i'll figure something out.

im going to see the baby girl today. Angela, they decided to call her. i told the father to let her go and to not force himself and angela to go through the operation. it's a 30% survival rate for her now. the doctors are washing their hands clean of it. maybe it'll be better for everyone if angela came home already.

who knows, angela will stay pure that way. she has known pure pain in her mother's womb; let her be cradled in pure love when she decides to leave her broken body behind.
Current Mood: anxiousunsure
28 April 2005 @ 08:29 am
i have a friend who gave birth the other day. but the baby girl has hydrocephalus, a gaping wound along her spine, and a twisted foot. :'( much as i hate laying the blame on someone, i think it's the mummy's fault. she kept smoking and smoking and smoking the whole time she was preggy.

so now, it's 50-50 for the baby girl. the doctors say if they operate on the baby she'll die. and if they don't, she'll die anyway, too. that she must live to die just like that. :(
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
24 April 2005 @ 02:22 pm
i am now the proud owner of green slippers with butterflies on them-- i christened them "Better-flys" with beer. i bought them at landmark with emilyo when we went to redbox the other day. mmmmn, im posting this cus aside from the fact that i just procured my first kikay footwear, it was also my first time at landmark, glorietta, etc etc. haha. this is a milestone for me. :p me and my affinity to places.

the trip kinda drained me, though. the sight of so many unfamiliar (yet familiar) faces made me feel lost. the tall buildings didn't help. i guess emyl felt the same cus he started yelling, "ampanget panget dito! ampanget mo! ampanget mo!" over and over. though i felt like doing the same, i wasn't completely unaware of the stern way the guards were looking at us. so i led him to the mrt station (hey, im getting good at using the mrt!) to scout for food.

then we saw this stall that sold rice meals-- at 15 to 25 pesos each. RICE MEALS. emyl said we should try it out, so we did. i ordered adobo egg (15 pesos) while he ordered bacon with sauce (25 pesos). when i got my meal, i couldn't believe my eyes: it had one cup of rice, one hard boiled egg, and adobo. sauce. e kaya pala 15 bucks lang e. yung adobo, adobo sauce pala. then i started laughing and laughing, cus the thought occured that maybe the price can still go down if they would use quail eggs instead. then maybe, they could serve it sunny side up with half a cup of rice and a small spoon to match. that meal maybe would cost 7 pesos: 5 pesos yung rice tapos 2 pesos yung quail egg. edi hanep, may rice meal ka na diba? and the whole idea got funnier when i realized i found the stall at AYALA, ayala, of all places.

haaaaaay. there'll be a two peso hike in fare rates soon. i wonder what kind of world our children will be born to.
Current Mood: amusedamused
13 April 2005 @ 05:31 pm
The man who looks for security, even in the mind, is like a man who would chop off his limbs in order to have artificial ones which will give him no pain or trouble. - Henry Miller

it is so hard to be brave. :(
22 February 2005 @ 03:25 pm

Your Brain is 33.33% Female, 66.67% Male

You have a total boy brain

Logical and detailed, you tend to look at the facts

And while your emotions do sway you sometimes...

You never like to get feelings too involved

Current Mood: distresseddistressed
15 February 2005 @ 07:24 pm
im teary-eyed as i type this. i just watched 'innocence' at the cine adarna. T-T im such a sucker for love stories.